Letter to Vlad: One day at a Time

one day at a time, its alright. the mountains are beautiful. it hurts a whole lot. for lots of different reasons. but on some level, it feels right. overdue.
but i couldnt put into words how much it hurt. just ripped me apart, the whole time wanting to turn back. I'll tell you one thing, it helped me to really appreciate everything i took for granted bck home.
even things i thought i was sick of or hated. the phrase "count your blessings" never made as much sense to me as this past week, which feels like months to me.
and i've realized how unfair i've been to our friend [removed]. she trolls hard, thats for sure. and that has always hurt a little bit. hahahaha. but in the end, she's who she is, and i love her as a friend for who she is. if i have greater feelings for her, well i got the chance to let them out and let her know. that needs to be enough. theres no real need to drag the whole mess on, is there? although I have to tell you, who can surely understand even though its illogical. that i love her greatly. and always will. but am enough of a man to know i have to set that aside. its life.  and you cant ask people for what they dont have in their hearts. people have asked me and asked you for what we didnt have for them. it wasnt their fault. it wasnt ours. some things just are what they are, and aren't what they aren't. 
i'm closer to being at peace with that. one day at a time.